Out of touch to reality

Dk how to explain my feelings right now but everything is surreal to me, in a good way. 

From the moment Nero and I confirmed about going to Batam for a trip, it's been showering me with love every day it's crazy. 

I could feel excitement at random point of time, I randomly Check out good hotels to stay in since we agreed 4/5 star is good. And no... It's not about being excited for sex or shit like that. It's all about the time we will be spending together. It's not bringing skinship to another level, it's bringing time to another level. The experience, like staying in one roof together. It's a beautiful thing I'm looking damn forward to cause its not everyday that we get it. 

It just feels out of touch to reality. 

And I'm loving it. It's in November. 

I shall be patient. 

Anyway. Met the boy today.. And tomorrow. Today is just talks and passing him some foods my mum made for him and a gift surprise I had for him. Tomorrow. Will be a good day. Again.

鸡饭 你等我 OK

3am

3am and I am still WIDE awake despite having only about 5hrs of sleep last night. Why can't sleeeeep?? Because smart me wears my retainer after 1yr+ of abandoning it. My teeth hurts so much I probably think it will shift my jaw from fat round jaw to very sharp jaw like shark's nose-- as in shark's head tip. Or jaw. Idk laaaa~~~~~ but I really feel like watching the jaws movie again. Or free willy the whale. Idk. Urgeeeee but it will prolly be gone Tmr Morning aft a night's sleep.

Either way. I also coulsnt sleep cause I was busy looking at places to go to. Outside of skngapore. Trip with my dearest man. I think we'll just go back to Batam lol. Wanted to visit a place that have plenty of historical stuffs... It's really interesting la. Found it at Yogyakarta. But dk if we want free&easy or tour. Kkkkk serious note, still dk if want to stay overnight or just for the day. For the day sounds good but how to satisfy all the foods that have not been tried there. 

And my thoughts at 3am today. CALM. Very CALM. Like empty thoughts today AH but I'm just happy, cause my man is baaaaack from Shanghai todayyyy. 

Oh YA and talk about thoughts. How do people from fb get access to my number? And how can they see my number and add me on their address book or things like that when I don't even know?!?!? I even got stranger's number who added me on LINE. Nah Forget it, heck care. 

I shall try to sleep now. 

sausage

Today went out with the usuals! It's been quite long as far as i remember because their bakso have been in my fridge for quite sometime. Or maybe cause i open my fridge everyday so i see until like very long but actually it's not. DK LA.

Had Korean BBQ buffet today. ALL THE MEATS~~~ Proteins and very little carbohydrates and that's gooooddddd. Wah and all the korean songs there... cannot not get hype and sing along it. I think they think i crazy already. OH YA, then we took like sausage after rounds of eating, getting full already right, then there are extra sausages down there. We were sitting at the side of the place. It wasn't covered with glass. More like terrace cover kind so there was like a hole for air circulation thing ...i reckon that's what it is used for la i just anyhow bomb only. But main point is there was the air hole and when we look down (we were on the 7th floor of Orchard central), it was already roads and cars were like driving past there. Wanted to throw the sausage over there. But THE SMART ME. Aiming fail la ok. I threw without looking, the sausage touched the metal ceiling above the air hole, bounced back and fall nicely on Sarah's chicken curry plate beside her. LAUGHED LIKE MAD.

Then we went to walk around scape to find for the army boy's iPhone 6 casing. UNTIL NOW I REALLY DO NOT KNOW HOW. SHAWN REALLY DAMN FAST LA BOOK ONLINE ALL. AND HE'S IN ARMY. Literally when i saw him when he reached, i wanted to complain about my hands too small can't even type properly on iPhone 5s and then he just literally showed me his iphone6. LOL.

Ya then, H&M. Wah heaven i tell you, And i bought 2 clothes. HAPPY LEHHHHHH~~~ and it fits me well and look good on me~~ SHOPPING! PARADISE! But so many thick clothes like the furrrrrss that Sarah referred to as poodle fur hahaahaha but it really doesn't suit Singapore weather tbh i dk why it's even on the rack. Wear once and die out of heat stroke is more likely to happen even before the miraculous snow will come.  IT'S 32 D.C today yup it's damn hot BLACKCOPP or dk what the army boy refers it as. BLACKCOP AH BLACKCOP BLACKCOP.

Ohhhh then we also went to find for seats after that. Finally settled at Coffeebean and i had my pure vanilla ice blended~~~~~ with whip cream. Saw Anisah there as well. Then go home already! Go home and sleep until 9pm.

Ya all 4 of us were carrying H&M bags. 3 of them are Bakso cause my house is full of H&M plastic bags so i just give all 3 H&M bags. Then purchase my clothes so i also carry H&M bag.

My lovers.

Overseas

First day my boy's at Shanghai and I am here doing my own thang. I really love it you know....

Like we grew so close to each other the feelings always there and always so close whenever we are both at singapore. But then when it comes to like few days of seperation (one week this time round), it just feels weirdly amazing. Idk. Either I am really weird to be enjoying this feeling or.... I am just really weird. 

Not that I dislike talking to each other all day everyday. I love it. Communication is key right. 

But at the same time, during these kind of periods, it gives me the time to actually miss him properly. Miss him as in really just giving a thought of what he could be doing and such and NOTexcessively like why he abandon me in skngapore all alone and such And I wish he was here and such, no. It's just missing him and DOing my own thing. 

But most importantly; time to miss him AND also the excitement I get. After a looooong day without communication, you know it's like you have soooo much to talk to him about. Literally when you receive ONE message, it just drives all the tiredness all away. It's just excitement and recalling how's the day like. All in one message. 

It's not like he cannot text me. He can text me as much (although phone bill will cost a bomb), but I always want him to just text me like once IS ENOUGH to pet day whenever he is overseas because 1) I really just want him to enjoy his time there 2) I really LOVE the feeling of getting just one LONG YEXT from him telling me about his day and me telling him about mine. 

Aiya so basically to say, the excitement I get and the long message I receive in ONE MESSAGE completes my whole day. I LOVE IT. 

very weird right I also feel v weird but I love it I can't help it. (APPLICABLe TO ONLY WHEN EITHER OF US ARE OVERSEAA) other than that we probably are the most TALKTATIVE couple. 

Two days

Met 2 days in a row with my man before he leaves for Shanghai for a whooping one week! 

Actually today is really impromptu last minute since he had potluck at his company for tmr and I went over to help to choose what to cook. 

Had beef noodle today. He Intro one and the beef really damn lean and tender like pork like that not like beef. SHIOK. But the Kway Teow was really really a lot I ended up picking out only the beef to eat. Then I gave Nero my bowl ask him eat the beef only and after he dig the whole bowl he said "no beef already" hahahahahaha. 

Yesterday!!! 

CENTREPOINT for Astons buffet. My life was complete ok. I literally took advantage of the mac&cheese and took like 4 bowls of it. Free flow side dishes and drinks buffet. WHO DONT WANT TO EAT AS MUCH RIGHT. And the meat portion there is slightl expensive but it was worth every Penny cause my pork chop.... 2 slabs of it ok. And overall mine & Nero total cost only bomb up to $57.80. YA inclusive of the buffet and main course. Considered very cheap already it was paradise!! 

The rest of the time I was busy eating la so delicious I can't be bothered to take pictures. Too hungry already niaaaaaaaa. 

You da dime forever my beefff ~~~| 

The 3rd concert

My life probably revolve around myself, business, friends I cared, and love of my life. And that's more than enough. 

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Had the chance to went for YG FAMILY CONCERT last Saturday (13-9-2014) with Nero. booked for the ticket under VIP As well and it was an amazing experience. Good view, amazing concert, amazing confetti that I fell in love with the moment it was in the air. 

The day - spent the morning eating some jap food at a store at bishan. The balls and chicken were surprisingly delicious. 

Then headed to indoor stadium for the VIP sound check. One thing that is standard there is that being crazy is the norm. Shouting like really hardcore fans is norm. But anyway after the VIP sound check, we went to check out this new mall I don't recall what's the name but it's just somewhere around there. Went shopping with Nero. He helped me to pick out some clothes and we both purchased a few each. Fairprice there cause we were really thirsty and then we had Bak kut teh. I honestly thought the bkt I made was much better la hahahaha and the soya bean there is good btw. Then went for the concert. It was crazy! Everything was perfect in my opinion and i throughouly enjoyed myself there as well. Except for the fact that I couldn't jump as much as I wanted BECAUSE I WAS HAVING MY DAMN PERIOD THAT DAY AND WHENEVER I TRIED TO JUMP A FEW TIMES IT WAS LIKE GRAVITY WAS PULLING DOWN ALL MY BLOOD DOWN SOUTH IT WAS A BURDEN, LITERALLY. 

Great great day and night nevertheless. With the right company as well. My concert partner, my love of my life. 

The view was amazing. With the lights and everything it was beautiful than In pictures. 

I've got too much to show but the lights were incredible. It's what makes me love concerts more than clubbing and stuffs like that. 

On a side note, let me show you my very handsome husband. I ditched GD cause he's too wild. I don't like wild guys who acts too cool lol. I'm still deciding between yonghwa and song jae rim though but I figured SJM is more appealing now. SJM is my actor husband, JYH is my singer husband. 

The SMILE SMILE SMILES. 

*melts* ok good night ! 

Glad

I forgot how enjoyable it was recording every single day of my life until I decided to looked back and re-read everything from the first start. So many thoughts that went through my mind. 

How I changed over the years, how feelings changed, what friendships were made and which were broken... Every little details. There are days that are too saddening at the same time, there are days that ended up in a happier note. And even the happiest. 

So glad to have been experienced whatever had been done or felt. So glad to have lost people that taught me lessons. So glad for people that stayed throughout. So glad I see through it all - the good and bad. 

So glad to have been able to feel. 

Shall start writing again.